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Eleven Months Old

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Mary is eleven months old now. My baby is eleven months old and it suddenly hits me that I’m running out of babies altogether. It feels kind of like my own 24th birthday. Or like my 29th and my upcoming 34th. The milestone before the big one carries all the weight of lost youth and missed opportunities. The new age bracket hovers menacingly on the horizon, daring me to grow up enough in time to meet it. And then I turn 25, 30 or 35 and I’m over it. The actual milestone is rather anti-climatic, allowing me to celebrate like it’s any other birthday.

I went to New York for four measly days and Mary seemed like a whole other baby when I got back. Maybe I had some dated memory of her, I don’t know. But I came back to a giant-sized baby who likes to point at everything, asking, “Dat? Dat? Dat?” I returned to a baby who will hide behind a chair or her own hands to play peek-a-boo. She eats almost everything, transitions happily between bottle and breast, mom and dad, or nice-enough looking strangers. And she loves nothing more than to hug and kiss her big sister’s baby dolls, even though she is supposed to be a baby herself.

Colum was walking clear across rooms by eleven months, Irene not long after. But Mary is the only one who can speed crawl across the main floor of a house at the first sign of an open door, desperate for some water play in the toilet. She can also climb an entire flight of stairs in the blink of an eye and get on and off a low-slung sofa in our living room. She has just started to show some passing interest in walking around holding onto your hands. Third babies know if they want to get places, they’d better learn to do it on their own. And then this morning, standing up at the fridge, she let go to better manipulate some letter magnets and remained standing all by herself for several beats.

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She’s into cards. Playing cards, sports cards, Pokemon cards, you name it, just as long as they are precious and dear to her big brother.

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She has a keen interest in audio/video technology.

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She digs bikes.

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It only took me several hundred attempts over the course of a few months to get a decent shot of her on the swings. Be proud for me.

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“What do you mean I’m going to have to start wearing pants?”

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Perseverance is her middle name. Well, it’s not really. It’s actually Elizabeth. You just never know these days.

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I had to get Mary her own cell phone. But there’s no way I’m signing up for unlimited data. Kids.

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She’s becoming one of them.

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Happy month before your first birthday, Mary. All of your firsts are my lasts, but I’ll try not to weep too loudly.

 

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Conference Dos and Don’ts

Most people like to write a “how-to” Blogher post leading up to the conference or maybe a recap post as soon as they get back. Not me. I like to wait until Friday afternoon when the internet empties out and then post something that won’t be relevant for another year. That brings me to my first point:

DO try to learn something. The sessions are the meat of the conference and most of us should be able to walk away with one or two nuggets of new information. (Although I am also a firm believer in aisle seating so you can make a break for it if the session is a dud. You owe to nobody to stay. See what’s going on elsewhere.) So now I will know when I’m posting things on the wrong day of the week and sabotaging my SEO with clever titles and crappy links. I won’t stop doing that stuff, but at least I’ll know why I’m doomed to remain in relative obscurity.

DON’T sweat the swag. If you happen to be invited to a nice party that’s giving out decent swag and it happens to fit your schedule, sure. But don’t spend any amount of time or energy maneuvering your way onto guest lists of parties just because you want to feel special. There is nothing anyone is giving away that’s worth stressing about. Don’t leave the hotel by yourself to go to some random party thrown by people you’ve never heard of to drink some horrible Kahlua concoction and talk with coupon bloggers* from Minnesota and then start to get antsy because you’re missing Sparklecorn and what the hell are you doing here anyway so you leave after 45 minutes and don’t even get a swag bag because you probably weren’t there long enough. Ahem. Don’t do that. And also, step away from the crazy ladies that were stealing display merchandise from the expo booths because they were so eager to get their greedy, grubbing hands on swag they didn’t stop to ask what they could take. Those aren’t your people.

DO find your people. This can be daunting when you’re dealing with 5000+ attendees, but it’s still possible. Work the introductions from people you already know and don’t be afraid to introduce yourself to others wherever you happen to be. Go to the sessions and parties and events that appeal to you and your people will be there. Shocker, I know.

DON’T rely on the hotel wifi. This is especially an issue if you are a Canadian travelling in the States. Roaming fees can be killer and I, for one, didn’t want to tempt the data fates. But the wifi sucked so bad it was actually almost amazing. Different parts of the hotel used different wifi networks so you were constantly moving in and out of them. Some areas had no coverage and the places that did were so overloaded as to be almost useless. I missed so many messages and moving around and then meeting up with friends was way more complicated than it needed to be. Never again. Next time I do my homework and either buy a roaming package or figure out how much some basic data usage will cost.

DO get away from the conference. Because you will have purchased a data package after all! Dinner out with a small group of wonderful ladies, breakfast on a patio with my roommate and an afternoon of wandering the streets of New York city by myself are definite highlights from my weekend. But no matter where you are, it’d be a shame not to get out and soak up the local flavour. Those memories will serve you far longer than the sample size packets of hand cream you might score at the expo hall.

DO ask if you can tag along. Don’t beg and whine and be all passive aggressive, mind you. But a simple, “Hey, do you guys have dinner plans?” scored me an invite to join. And being stranded at the airport would have been a lot less fun if I hadn’t asked CL and Dee if I could share a cab with them.

DON’T stay out until 4:30am partying it up in a Karaoke bar in Koreatown with a random assortment of awesome bloggers — unless you want to have the time of your life!! Fun and amazing things will happen if you push yourself past your comfort zone, say “yes” to almost anything and understand that having a good time is ultimately your own responsibility.

*I have nothing against coupon bloggers at all. In fact, they mostly seem to be very lovely people. I just also have very little in common with them. Please don’t take offense.
And if you want to read more about what I think of Blogher? For some reason? The satirical recap post I wrote two years ago is still pretty awesome.
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Camp LaGuardia: SOS

The day started pleasantly enough: coffee in the hotel lobby after check out, deli for lunch, a trip to Chelsea Piers and a long solo walk back to the hotel to collect my luggage. It was hot and sunny. It was New York in August.

Talk of thunder storms and flight diversions in the hotel lobby foreshadowed the disaster to come. Still, there was not a cloud in the sky and my flight was listed as “On Time.” I hopped into a cab with photography sage CL Buchanan and the Cocktail Deeva and we lurched our way toward LaGuardia. We dropped CL at terminal B and continued to terminal C where the perpetually smiling faces of WestJet clerks greeted us.

We cleared security in no time, the breast pump, Trojan vibrator (what? they were giving them away) and full-coverage, sausage-leg Spanx ménage à trois in my carry on notwithstanding. With nearly an hour to kill the Cocktail Deeva beelined it to the airport bar where we had a lighthearted discussion about the movie Contagion and how easily new mutations of pathogens can spread from surface to surface across the world in today’s air travel-giddy climate. “Don’t touch your face!” she warned. Then we rubbed lemon wedges all over our hands.

It was almost time to board, so we huddled around a rickety outlet charging our phones. I didn’t even hear the first announcement: “Flight 90xyz27 to Denver, Colorado is CANCELLED.” But then there was another one. And another. Flights were being cancelled left, right and centre. Would ours be next? I dug into the ratty old backpack that was my carry on and pulled out a bag of chips. Crap, they weren’t chips. They were some sort of bland, organic, vegetable snack (baby food, actually, I learned when I later pulled chips out of my suitcase in a baby food bowl). No worries, I tossed a bunch of swag snacks in there for the trip home. I tried again: yogurt-covered pineapple oat bites? yogurt dipped granola bar? stale sugarless cookies? The Cocktail Deeva was not impressed. She offered up half of her Snickers bar and I was glad to have it.

“WestJet flight 2113 to Toronto has been delayed. The new departure time will be 7:40.” Oh crap. At least it isn’t cancelled. We went to unplug our phones to head for the “pub style” airport bar and holy hell, burning! The chargers were so hot after 20 minutes in that outlet that it’s like a miracle of Fatima that the entire terminal isn’t being engulfed by flames all the time.

We snagged a window seat with a view of the tarmac — scenic! — and sought out the safest, most unscrew-up-able, menu items. No blue fin tuna or rib eye steak for us! We’re savvy enough to know better. And then our flight got delayed another hour and a half because WestJet never cancels flights, you see. They just keep on delaying them. And then our food came. That’s about when the desperation started setting in.

I had just suffered through four days of incredibly poor hotel wifi reception, missing messages all over the place, because I was too cheap to pay for US roaming charges. Now, one delayed flight, a basket of freezer burned chicken wings, some sorry-ass fries and a chip and dip appetizer that was actually literally potato chips and onion dip later and I was scrambling to turn my data on. Roaming charges be damned, this was a mother effing emergency and I needed my twitter.

Oh shit. That plane outside on the tarmac? The one sitting there for over two hours? Yeah, it was filled with people, many of whom I know and follow. At least we were stranded inside. At least the beer was cold. At least we weren’t hemmed in by a coupon blogger and some guy from Denver. Oh man, really? How does Denver boy even think he has a chance with a married coupon blogger with four kids? And no, I don’t know your friend Cathy who blogs about her children. Just like I don’t know Bob from Winnipeg. Blogging is the new Canada.

So, yeah, the plane got delayed again.

It probably had something to do with this.

New estimated boarding time: 9:45. What if it just keeps getting bumped back like this, hour after hour, I wondered? You see, THIS is why I  packed an extra synthroid pill in my carry on. I wasn’t going to be the one to suffer the slight drop in thyroid function sometime next month. Nope, I wouldn’t be the one feeling imperceptibly slower and colder — even if I did still manage to feel fatter. Emergency preparedness is my middle name.

At long last, we did board our plane around 10pm. And then the scariest thing of all happened. The lovely WestJet crew (replete with an Adam Sandler look-alike attendant) offered us free alcohol and both the Cocktail Deeva and I ordered coffee instead.

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Can’t Blog, Blogher-ing

When I first had Colum I couldn’t understand why I would want to hang out with a bunch of other moms and their babies. I wouldn’t suddenly have more in common with someone just because we both successfully gestated a human being, right? And then I started blogging.

It’s not moms I want to hang out with, it’s mom bloggers!*

This is all to say that I’m off to the biggest female blogger bash in the world tomorrow. The Blogher Conference is in New York City again this year (which is where it was two years ago when I attended for the first time). It will be a four-day, three-night whirlwind of parties and sessions, professional networking and giggling like a school girl with far flung friends, swag grabs and sight seeing, and eating and drinking. I am into all of it. Did I mention that I’m leaving all the kids with Ed? Because I am. Wheee!

I’ll be back here again next week to catch you all up. In the meantime, I’ve gone to the trouble of programming the Olympics in my stead ;)

*Of course I have lots of good mom friends that I’ve met at drop ins and the park and the school yard, too. Don’t get me wrong. There are also no shortage of mom bloggers you couldn’t pay me to hang out with, and many non-parenting bloggers who I would love to have a drink with. There’s just an extra special kind of vibe at Blogher, that’s all.

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The No Refrain

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We were home from a lovely event at Riverdale Farm last week — from meeting with farmers and learning about agriculture in Ontario — when the kids came over with temporary tattoos, bright yellow rectangles that read “Farmers Feed Cities.” Okay, sure, why not.  Irene lifted up her shirt and I stuck one on her belly. Colum grinned and pointed to his forehead.

“You know what, buddy, I don’t think you really want a tattoo on your face. Why not pick any other part of your body?”

He insisted that his face was where it was at. I insisted that face tattoos are not the look he was going for. (I may even have let him scroll through the Google image results for “face tattoo” in a misguided attempt to dissuade him. “Cool, mom! That guy has the Iron Man mask!”)

In the end he refused to let me put the tattoo anywhere else on his body and just sulked. There was no big scene or anything, but he was sad and I wondered (to myself and on Facebook) if I should have just let him stick the bloody thing on his face.

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The days have been long, filled with trips to the farm and the park and lots of running around. Bedtime has quietly slid later and later into the night while the sun, and my children with it, persists in rising at the regular time.

So, yes, she was tired. She was tired at 6:30pm the night before when I dragged everybody out for ice cream after dinner. She was tired at 8:30 when I was putting baby Mary down. She was tired at 10 pm (!) when she finally got to bed after watching the rerun of the Olympic Games opening ceremony with her dad.

She was still beyond exhausted when she woke up the next morning. She’s not yet four, after all. She pitched a fit over the colour of her cereal bowl. She insisted I fill it up higher. She refused to eat any fruit at all and then, after a couple bites, refused even her cereal. “I don’t LIKE Rice Krispies anymore!”

I offered her some peach slices and almonds as a mid-morning snack and she refused them. Then, just as I’m frantically trying to get something finished so I can start on lunch, the whining starts. It quickly escalates to stomping and yelling. She hungry. She wants a snack. She doesn’t LIKE healthy snacks. She doesn’t LIKE lunch.

I knew she was tired. I also knew this routine was starting to wear away at my last nerve. This whole picking at meals only to keep begging for snacks all day routine was taking up all my time. I have three kids and a work-from-home job and I can’t spend more than half my day preparing food for this girl. And even if I could, it’s just not right. That’s how I felt, except a tad more screamy.

I said no and she flipped out. Full-on exhausted three-year-old-style meltdown. She couldn’t stop the tears now even if she tried. In the end I wound up acquiescing with a handful of Craisins and Honey Nut Cheerios in front of the TV. What was the point of even trying to put my foot down on a day she was so clearly overtired?

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And then I read Mom 101’s post about how she’s trying to say “yes” to her kids’ more harmless requests more often and how she got flamed on Twitter for letting them have a lollipop. I immediately thought, How dare she?! Doesn’t she have any dried fruit around? Wait, no. Clearly the people turning a lollipop treat into the tip of the childhood obesity iceberg and whatever else they were on about are crazy. It says more about them than it does about the lollipop.

Hold on.

I think I’m onto something there. I think that maybe when I say no to my kids it’s because I’m trying to make up for all the times I’ve allowed them to do things against my better judgement because it’s just easier. I confess. I have turned on the TV to babysit my kids for an hour so I can meet a deadline. I have thrown candy at Irene from my desk to buy me an extra few minutes. I’ve let Colum skip his bath more times than I care to admit. I bring Mary into bed at night to nurse even though I swore she’d be night weaned before Blogher (which is in three days, so, er, sorry Ed).

But how is that fair? Clearly, the children need some limits, but “no” isn’t always the answer. I can’t make up for my leniency by suddenly pulling out the rule book when it suits me either. And sometimes it doesn’t even matter, does it?

Photo credit: Hector Vasquez Photography

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Stuff I’m Digging: Rag Dolls

My two favourite childhood dolls were both rag dolls. There was a small one named Sally (who I still have, badly in need of repair, in a plastic bag somewhere) and there was a larger, red-haired one named Marigold after the doll on Polka-Dot-Door, of course. She disappeared mysteriously during one particularly intense spring clean. Don’t think I didn’t notice!

That’s Marigold from the Polka Dot Door on the far right with the blonde chick.

Irene also loves her rag dolls. She doesn’t mother them the same way she does her baby dolls or cuddle with them quite as much as her stuffed animals. They’re more like companions for tea parties and pretend grocery shopping. They’re guests at her restaurant and pupils at her school. They are sweet and innocent playmates that don’t quite understand why Barbie’s so stiff all the time.

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That’s two knit dolls with Hasbro Upsy Daisy in the middle.

But all of Irene’s rag dolls have been gifts. What else is on the current rag doll market, I wondered.

MGA Entertainment sent me one of their Lalaloopsy dolls, Sahara Mirage,  for review and we love her. The story is she is a rag doll come to life with her very last stitch. The dolls take on the personalities of the cloth they are made from. The only thing, of course, is that the doll is actually made of plastic. This means she’s not great for cuddling with, but she can be wiped down. Plastic or not, she flops around very much like a rag doll and has taken her place alongside the real ones. Retails for around $35

The other really nice rag dolls on the market come from Corrolle and are completely plush and soft and cuddly. These would be great for toddler to snuggle with and then grow into the idea of more imaginative play. We don’t actually have one of these dolls, but from what I can see in the store, it’s top notch. And for $40+ it should be.

But perhaps your best bet is to keep your eyes peeled at craft sales and stores and to browse Etsy for something handmade. Bonus points if you can make one yourself, with love.

Any rag dolls on the market that I’m missing? Any craft store or Etsy recommendations? Please share in the comments.

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Win a Family Pass to See ParaNorman

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Giveaway alert! Update: first five comments win.

I am the proud mother of a sweet child who can’t sit through Saturday morning TVO cartoons without jumping up and down with fear and excitement, who ran from the room in terror during Finding Nemo and who had to be coaxed down from upstairs to watch the happy ending. A recent birthday party with school friends featured a viewing of Ice Age 4 and the poor thing was audibly frightened and upset. So we won’t be going to this.

But, man, does it look good.

Alliance Films has a new 3D stop motion animated feature called ParaNorman that’s about a small-town boy who can talk to the dead and has to save his town from a zombie attack. They’re calling it a “comedy thriller” and it’s rated PG. It looks just about right for your less sensitive school-aged kids, ages 8 and up. Here’s the trailer so you can see for yourself:

 

And I have FIVE family-of-four passes to giveaway!

Win a family-of-four pass to the advance screening of ParaNorman at Silver City Yonge & Eglinton, Toronto on Saturday, August 4 at 10am by:

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  • The first five people to leave me a comment will get a family pass. That is all.
  • And because I have so many to giveaway, help me spread the word by either tweeting or posting the following to Facebook for an extra entry. Win a family-of-four pass to an advanced screening of ParaNorman at Siver City Yonge & Eglinton, Toronto. http://playgroundconfidential.com/2012/07/24/2947/ 
  • Make sure to leave a second comment telling me that you did that.

Contest closes at midnight on Sunday, July 29. I’ll use random.org to draw the winners.

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Community, We Have It

Ed’s been working extra a lot these past few, er, years really. But the past few weeks have been especially intense. That means it’s just me and the kids for the vast majority of the time which is absolutely fine and wonderful. Except when it’s not.

Cue me losing it out of the blue when I discover them all (Ed and Colum and Irene) gathered around his computer playing some sort of Lego™ game. I started stomping around half muttering, half calling out complaints like, “I can’t even take them swimming because you’re too busy working and now you’re playing computer games?!” Or, “We’ve done nothing all weekend because you’re supposedly working and now this.” Or, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, but it’s just me and them all day, every day and I’m going CRAZY.”

Which, ’nuff said, basically. The truth is that dude really is up against some serious deadline pressure. I know that and I know what I signed up for when I got myself into this whole marriage/family situation. But also, I am taking off to New York city all by myself in a week and a bit for the Blogher conference, so revenge reprieve will be mine. The truth is also that I live in a neighbourhood with awesome women like Laura and Genevieve of the Junk Mamas.

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Women like these, who continuously do amazing and cool things for their community out of the goodness of their hearts, make the 24/7 child wrangling gig bearable. Hell, they make it fun.

So yesterday, instead of pulling my hair out in a futile attempt to “get something done,” we headed over to our local park for FREE camp-style arts and crafts. Qualified art instructors courtesy of the local art supply store Articulations? Check. Lifeguard-manned wading pool? Check. Two different play structures? Check. Picnic tables, grassy expanses, sandboxes and swings? Checkorama. Who needs to shell out for day camp anyway?

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Thanks you, Junk Mamas! There’s a new craft every day all week from 1 – 3pm. (Not all of them will be run by Articulations.) Then on Friday evening there’ll be a community BBQ, the proceeds of which will be put back into the park. If you’re in the west end of Toronto, check out the Vine Park Pop-Up Camp Facebook page, or just show up! If you’re NOT in the T Dot and want to do something like this in your own neighbourhood, go for it. I know the Junk Mamas would approve.

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Making clay molds with sticks and stones and assorted other nature stuffs.

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Pouring porcelain into the molds.

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Close up of Colum’s. Ready to dry.

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The most beautiful brown, tree-like molded porcelain art thingy EVER.

And scene.

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“Did you hear about the shooting?” Please no.

I’ve been afraid to turn on my computer all weekend lest there be more bad news. (It helps that my computer also has one foot in the grave.) So imagine my relief tonight when I checked my email and found an offer of 60% off colon-hydrotherapy cleanses. Finally some good news! If I haven’t been able to wash off the foul odor of human tragedy in the shower, maybe I just haven’t been trying hard enough. And look! 530 have already been bought, so I’d better act fast.

In all seriousness, however, any day that doesn’t feature the question, “Did you hear about the shooting yesterday?” is a winner. I’m writing this on Sunday night at midnight. Motherf***ers better not mess this one up again. (Nothing like posting an obit to your laptop in the wake of a horrible  mass shooting that you’re oblivious to because of your new “write first, tweet later” rule. Might need to reconsider that one.)

First there was the Eaton Centre shooting that took place in the very same food court, in the very same part of the food court, that my family eats at. Colum heard about that one at school. Then there was the mob hit in Little Italy on the patio of an ice cream parlour that I used to go to. Then a block party just like the ones my husband used to attend gets shot up. And some guy shot his own brother just to top it all off. That’s just the hometown news.

Then some madman opens fire in a crowded movie theatre. A movie theatre just like the ones we have all been to. And we’re supposed to be scared of terrorists?! Because our run-of-the-mill crazy and disillusioned citizens are doing just fine thank you.

I don’t really have anything to say other than it gets a little harder each time to reassure the children that really, really they’re safe. It was just those other people, just a fluke occurrence, won’t ever happen to us. I’m here, so they’re safe. Right? Right?

I really just want to write about my new haircut and getting ready for the Blogher12 conference and maybe ask whether you think Mary’s old enough for cow’s milk while I’m away. I want to post some pictures of my kids riding their bikes and share my accidental vegetarian chili recipe. Can we just talk some more about moms who smoke pot? Please?

I’m Canadian. We’re not supposed to have to deal with gun violence. I say that not because I feel morally superior. I say that because I feel safer. It’s true. Crossing over from Seattle or Detroit or Buffalo or some little quaint Maine township, it doesn’t really matter, I always feel safer on my home soil. (That was a lie. Nobody is scared in Maine.) So where are all these guns coming from? And how can people still defend the right of a person to walk into a Kmart and buy an automated killing machine?

I just don’t get it.

But, here, read this instead. Jason Alexander does an anti-gun rant so much better than I do.

 

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An Ode to A Dying Laptop

Dear Acer laptop,

We first met when I was looking for the cheapest laptop at Future Shop to bring to the University of Toronto with me as I picked up my last couple credits during my first maternity leave. That was six years ago. You wore a shiny, faux metal cover as was the fad and were dubbed some sort of media player because of your extra wide screen.

Almost immediately your battery started sucking and I didn’t even get through that year without having to look for the nearest outlet at the library to write up my papers on metaphysics. The whopping 15GB of space on your C drive and the 30GB on your D drive weren’t very much six years ago and now they are laughably small. To make matters worse, you must have become infected with some sort of worm or virus or something about three or four years ago because your memory kept disappearing even though I never downloaded anything ever. I wound up having to delete such superfluous programs as Microsoft Office and the effing audio driver just to free up enough space to keep the computer running. I may have lost my temper at that point, dear laptop. I may have called you some pretty horrible names and threatened unspeakable violence.

And then suddenly it stopped. Maybe I finally deleted whichever program the virus was hiding in, I don’t know, but you stopped losing memory. For the past couple years I’ve kept on using you, waiting for you to finally sputter out for good. I can’t listen to any audio, so I miss out on most of the viral videos that are going around and I don’t follow any vloggers or anything like that. Your battery is basically completely dead, giving me less than five minutes away from a plug and I’ve been afraid to update any of your software lest it become to much for your fragile memory board. But day after day, you have kept starting up, letting me surf the net and use Google Docs for work and WordPress and Flickr for my blog. I started to think maybe you weren’t on your way out, after all.

I started to become kind of proud of my old work horse. Everybody else would be bragging on their new Mac Notebooks or whatever, but for $1000+ less I was able to gain access to the same internet as them, check my emails and work on my blog for six years running. (Note that very few of those people actually need a Mac for video editing or some other advanced computer skill. Their needs are like mine: surfing the net, email and word processing.) The kids knocked you off the table a couple months ago and your cord hasn’t been the same since. I’d have to search for the exact right angle to hold it at and then make sure not to move you around or you’d turn off. I’d look over at where Irene had peeled off your stickers and where she spilled nail polish on your keyboard and at the old space bar she ripped off. I’d jam my finger down hard on the sticky “9” key and think about how amazing it is that you still worked.

Then, yesterday, you wouldn’t connect to the internet. My iPod and my Blackberry and Ed’s laptop connected just fine. I disconnected and reconnected a dozen times. I tried a bunch of other things techy people suggested on blogs and in forums. And nothing. You said you were connected, but no pages would load. I’m afraid this is the end of the line for us.

The timing kind of sucks since I have no money to replace you, right now. I’ll have to use Ed’s laptop when he’s at work and the baby’s napping. But he usually needs his own computer in the evenings, when I do the bulk of my work. So we’ll have to figure something out soon. I think I’ll get another cheap PC and see if she can go half as long as you did.

And don’t confuse my sitting around on the couch streaming video for love, dear laptop. You’ll always be number one in my heart.